What would it be like to “just be”?
As in, live “as is”, no changes, as today’s version – the exact same you that exists this second. What would it be like to be completely yourself without striving and straining toward some goal, some other version of you? Imagine it for just a moment. What’s there? What isn’t?
Is it enjoying a social situation freely without the pressure to make a friend, make a deal, be seen, or even unseen?
Is it exhaling and releasing your belly or the folds of your back to unravel, without a care, across the area below?
Is it placing a block on the past – a transparent wall that separates you from a joy, mistake, or trauma where your brain thinks you should live instead?
What would it be like to just be and embrace what is, whatever it is, right now?
Radical (self) acceptance. Would it be so bad?
Imagine that. A moment where everything that’s happened, everything you’ve witnessed, and where you are now has been totally and completely accepted… by the most important person, you. No bones to eat clean. No details to pick apart. Just be-ing.
I’m realizing that there’s so much more to see when I am present here and ok with what is. When I’m not obsessing over what I could’ve said vs what I did say or whether that thing will work out the way I hope or worrying about what new thing aging has assigned to me, there’s calm, silence, rest, and sometimes, if I’m honest, sleep.
Lately, this is where Jesus has been leading me. To “just be” is a whole new world for me… one who is either waist-deep in the past, picking apart the present, or running light-years into the future. To “just be” is radical.
So far, I like that worry doesn’t seem to live here. But I can’t say for certain what does. I’ve only just started to look around.
What about you? What do you see?